Thoughts and Feelings
Amber ?
inviziblegirl at hotmail.com
Wed Sep 12 16:36:23 UTC 2001
Sadness. This is the foremost feeling. I feel sad for the people in the
planes who didn't know what was happening, that they were going to be used
as a weapon. I feel sad for the people who perished in the WTC towers. I
feel sad for the people who jumped out of the WTC towers. I feel sad for the
rescue workers, firemen, and policemen who died when the towers collapsed. I
feel sad for the people who died in the Pentagon. I feel sad for the people
who have lost their loved ones. I feel sad for the loss of "security" that
most Americans felt they had before.
Anger. I feel anger at the people who would do this terrorist act. I feel
anger at those who could hate Americans so very much. I feel anger at the
airports who didn't catch the hijackers in time, at the intelligence that
missed this. I feel angry that my way of life is going to be changed
irrevocably. I'm angry that the news stations were showing pictures of
people jumping from windows. I feel angry that so many have died. I feel
angry that our politicians are screaming for war when I feel that isn't
perhaps the best reaction. I feel angry that our citizens were used as a
weapon.
Worry. I'm worried about the reactions of those around me. I worry when
people who say that we need to bomb the hell out of other countries. I worry
that we're heading towards a horrific war. I worry that the US economy will
end up becoming irrevocably worse. I worry about people of the Muslim
religion being persecuted. I worry about people from the Middle Eastern
countries being persecuted. I worry that this isn't over and that the
terrorists are simply waiting for us to become complacent again.
Guilt. I feel guilty that all my friends and family are safe while so many
others have lost their loved ones. I feel guilty that I was perfectly safe
when these atrocities were carried out. I feel guilty that I'm worrying
about the economy when others have lost so much. I feel guilty that there's
little I can do to help. I feel guilty that I'm not screaming for war when
so many others are. I feel guilty that I'm glad I don't live in NYC or DC. I
feel guilty that I'm going to work in an office building while others work
relentlessly to retrieve bodies/survivors from the rubble. I feel guilty
that I probably don't entirely under the horror and shock that New Yorkers,
DC residents, and Boston residents.
Just the top four feelings that I have felt in the past day. Again, my
sympathies and condolences to everyone affected most by the terrorist
attacks. Words fail me on what else I can say.
~Amber
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