Aggh!

[dismal_sentence]

I know I may be repeating things on this board... but *screams at 
friend angrily* 

I tried all your suggestions, instead of listening to happy music, I 
watched Legally Blonde with Reese Witherspoon and it seemed to help til 
I woke up sweating and panting after having a nightmare. 

My friend (same friend of the "Problem" post earlier) thought, through 
webcam, it would be SO funny to show me pictures of a guy who got 
killed via an explosion (let's say he could have listened through his 
ears fine but the rest of his face was...gone), a pair of legs on the 
road from a car accident, and a murdered woman (this I didn't see 
because I was getting sick of her showing me these pictures so I 
covered them up and worked on homework). She said, after showing me 
these pictures, "Have a good night's sleep! ha ha ha!" 

Is she just being malicious to my poor scared self? Right now I'm 
really wishing I can try to shuttle a few hours of sleep in my system 
before I go insane from dancing bloodied legs and no-faced men. 

My point of this post is what is it with people who take pictures of 
dead people for entertainment? I understand if they take pictures of 
crime scenes (The Black Dahlia crime scene is grisly but I slept fine 
after seeing it, p'haps it's black and white photo and from a FAR away 
point) for research purposes or psychoanalytical methods. But 
entertainment is just going too far and it is an exploitation of the 
body. When I saw the first photo I immediately thought of what my 
parents saw during the early 1970's in Northern Ireland. Believe me 
that wasn't pretty

For now I'm going to threaten not to watch her anymore on webcam or get 
IM image connections from her. I'm sick of her showing me grisly death 
scenes without telling me that she's going to show me. I've gotten used 
to Marilyn's dead body already (it's just a headshot, it won't hurt me 
at all). 

S. (wishing her other half was here and snuggling with me in bed)