[HPFGU-OTChatter] Re: college update again (social disibilities)

[Saitaina]

Catlady wrote:

<Oh, dear. Poor Saitaina *schnoogles Sait*. Is there somewhere else 
you could go to school to be a phlebotomist?>

Nope, only school in town.  Decided to go a different way though and do something computer related.

Catlady then wrote:

<Social disabilities?>

I have borderline agoraphobia and an extreme fear of rejection and judgement(caused by years of being isolated from others my age) so talking to stranger is hard.  I can't call up stores and the sort, I can't talk to salesclerks without prepping myself for ten minutes, I have difficulties going to unfamiliar places such as different stores, classes (It took me an hour to get ready for my first phlebotomy class, trying to talk myself out of it), and that sort.  When I do force myself to do things that are hard for me I usually get horribly sick as most people do with phobias and/or have a panic attack.  I'm getting better at it (I actually walked into a store with the purpose of asking a question of the sales staff and did it, not backing out as I usually do) but it's still very hard for me to do things and function as a normal person would in the situation.  When confronted with embarrassment for example I usually flee instead of laughing it off as another would.   

I also still have traces of ADDH (Attention Deficit Disorder with Hyperactivity) that I had as a child and will get bouncy and giggly and makes me look all of fourteen.  Medication cannot control this as it's such a small effect, but it still impacts my relations with others.

These disabilities all come into effect with my Phlebotomy work as I'm encountering strangers at every turn and sometimes when I'm close to panicking my ADDH kicks in.  This is also why I get giggly and bouncy in HPfGU Sunday chats, it's the panic of being rejected (even though I know I'm not) kicking in.



Saitaina
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