Mediocre in fanfic = okay, mediocre in vidding = depressing

[Dina Lerret]

The fact I'm a mediocre fanfic writer isn't that troubling for
me--adding in the fact I fall asleep from my own writing. {g} 
However, being mediocre at vidding is... gah!  It's very depressing
for me because I invest more in it and there's really no one to help
when you need a 'beta'.

{sigh} I'm having a 'depressed moment'.  Part of getting a better
'eye' or experience is seeing what others are doing, so I saw someone
else's vid and now I'm feeling helpless and depressed because the vid
was *good* and it's like I can never get that good.  This is partly
why I don't watch other vids but doing this undermines learning from
others.

:-( :-( :-(

I'll go back to beta reading Harry Potter slash.  Heh, it's ironic I
can do a *semi*-decent job at fanfic reviews/beta work but it's not
what I want to do.  Instead, I want to do something I'm not good at
and probably never will be, thus, depressing me into wanting to sob
like... Draco Malfoy. ;-)

Dina