Putting off reading DH because I can't stand to have it all end

[lydiaccc]

I have the book in front of me, right here, and have not started it
(OK, I read the first page, but that's it).  I am too afraid that my
life will change once I read the final book, because I won't have
another book to look forward to.  I'm too afraid that the miracles HP
has brought into my life - knowing I'm a part of something, fanfic,
slash, etc. - will go away after everyone reads this book.  I know
rationally that HP fanfic will continue to be written for a long time,
and the conventions will probably only grow.  Probably it's just
superstition on my part - if I don't read the final book then somehow
I'll stave off the dying-away of the fandom.  But here I sit, looking
at it, not knowing when I'll open it up.  Does anyone else relate to this?