[HPforGrownups] Defending Snape

[Dinah]

No: HPFGUIDX 16892

Another point: When he decided to leave the DE because he noticed *what*
they really presented, he lost probably a huge part of his life. And all he
got from it was pain and suffering. If people that trusted you, were your
friends, stop to do that even if you give up what you thought was a vital
cause for them, it hurts. And it shatters your whole world.

That's basically what happened to him. I think Dumbledore, Hagrid and
McGonaggal are the ones who trust him, believe in him, but even then he had
to show that he deserved that trust (naturally, since he was on "the other
side" for quite some time).

He has lost the meaning in his life after Voldemort disappeared. He helped a
great deal, and doesn't get credit, people mistrust him, don't like him, see
him as the traitor. Everyone mourns the Potters, and the Longbottoms, they
are considered the heros, although Severus probably had to go through things
and saw things that were harder to bear, especially if you didn't have
someone to back you up and be there for you.

His teaching job is all he has left now. And because of that, and because he
saw how wrong his rule-breaking with the DE was, he is strict and wante his
students to adhere to rules. Literally, without thinking. He probably thinks
that if he made the wrong decision, they could do it too, and that's why
they have to learn to listen and behave.

His tolerance for people like Neville is therefore pretty low because he
doesn't want to put up with someone who obviously gets the easiest things
wrong.

It's also a source for his grudge against Harry and the Marauders as a
whole - they break/broke rules all the time and never got punished. He
doesn't see that they break the right rules, so to speak, and just wants to
prevent their rule-breaking - because when he did it he lost everything, and
they don't, they only gain.

 ~ Dinah ~

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