Snape: What is he up to?

[ksnidget]

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bugaloo37-who is really trying to figure Snape out. wrote
>are there anymore 
>theories out there concerning Snape's ambiguous relationship with 
>Harry other than the childhood grudge or unrequited love theories? I 
>am really interested in getting more information on this particular 
>subject. 

One explaination of mine has to do with the whole.
"our newest celebrity" crack and the way Snape 
really seems to want that Order of Merlin award in PoU

It is more of an overall psychological profile kinda thing,
but it could be in part "childhood grudge" but it goes beyond
just the James saving his life thing.

I think that perhaps part of what Snape wants out of life is
to be recognized.  To be approved of and rewarded.

Now he's got a problem.  The biggest thing he is doing that he
should get rewarded for (the whole spying on Voldemort and the
courage that has to take) is not really something that he is
likely to get awarded for.  Dumbledore knows the truth about him.
But I don't see much in the way of hero's welcome in that no matter
how well he gets the job done.  And I don't know if knowing in his
heart he did a good thing is enough satisfaction for him.

Now James got tons of recognition and that may have been part
of the fuel to the childhood grudge.  So this fits more in that
side of the equation, but it isn't just a grudge based on a prank
that went wrong kind of thing.

But here comes little Harry "the Boy who lived" he gets fame
and all that could come with it for defeating Voldemort.  Is Snape
going to get that kind of celebrity if his spying brought down 
Voldemort.

I'm thinking not.

So here is someone who possibly without having done anything directly
to merit the honor, is getting it.

Much like people in his past, in his mind, did.

What Snape wants most (recognitions, celebrity, fame, honors)
he doesn't get.  Those that are getting them, particularly if
they may not deserve them, are very annoying to him.  And he
is do damn honest to just play nice to the people he can't stand.

Ksnidget