Dead Sirius *weep*--not

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No: HPFGUIDX 67756

The death of Sirius was an odd moment of reading for me because,
unlike so many 
others I guess, I was not sad about it at all.  He really annoyed me
throughout the 
entire book, and I just couldn't work up a tear for him.  There was a
certain bravado 
to his actions in this book, a certain immaturity that really began
to wear on me.  His 
willingness to put himself in danger in order to feel like he was
helping showed me 
that he was unable to subordinate his feelings and needs to the good
of the Order.  If 
he'd just sat tight, he would have been of great use down the road
when his talents 
were needed most.  I'm sorry for Harry, as he has lost the closest
connection to his 
parents and his guardian.  But I have to say, I breathed a sigh of
relief that it wasn't 
Dumbledore, McGonagall or Lupin.  They truly seem to have Harry's
best interest at 
heart whereas Sirius didn't always seem to.  I have a lot of guilt
over my feelings 
about this, so don't be too hard on me!  

Pauletta the guilt ridden but relieved.