"I'm not proud of it"

[huntergreen_3]

No: HPFGUIDX 106751

Slyvia wrote:
>> "I'm not proud of it" simply isn'tsufficient excuse. I am not 
convinced that Sirius really thought that he and James were arrogant 
little berks. As HunterGreen points out, he is still calling Snape by 
the silly nickname Snivellus and neither he nor Lupin seem to 
appreciate how deeply hurt Harry is. <<

HunterGreen:
They really don't, do they? Sirius has such a warped view of James, 
that it doesn't occur to him how different Harry is in many ways. 
When Snape compares James to Harry, Sirius just doesn't see how that 
could be negative. Whereas the moment he sees what James was really 
like, Harry sees it as negative immediately. In fact it *disturbs* 
him. Its interesting that during the floo-powder scene (just after 
the pensieve scene), that Lupin and Sirius start talking about James 
in affectionate terms when Harry is clearly very upset. 

Concerning Sirius, he may or may not feel any shame or remorse for 
the incident, but I do think he's matured a small amount since then 
(enough so that when he looks back, he realizes how stupid it was). 
Not only does he say "I'm not proud of it", he also calls him and 
James 'idiots' several times. When it comes to him and Snape, I think 
they just have a bad influence on each other. Like I said in the post 
you referenced, Snape doesn't act very mature during these 
confrontations either. Sirius is very emotional, and is the type that 
doesn't think things out, therefore it would be quite in character 
for him to get caught up in the heat of the moment. (I'm not excusing 
his actions, just trying to explain them). Not only that, but knowing 
Snape when Snape was still the enemy, makes it very hard for him to 
accept Snape on the Order's side. Much as if an adult Draco joined 
the Order....how would Harry react to that?