What It's Like To Be Dumbledore (was: Who's to Blame/Ending Occulmency/Long

[rowena_grunnionffitch]

No: HPFGUIDX 100607

--- In HPforGrownups at yahoogroups.com, "koinonia02" <Koinonia2 at h...> 
wrote:
 
> Dumbledore is in a terrible position and I don't think many people 
> stop to think about what he has gone through and what he is going 
> through now. 

   I have. ;) Dumbledore must be in a great deal of emotional pain 
and distress to come so close to breaking down in Harry's presence, 
(burying his face in his hands, the tear). 

   Think about it: every member of the OoP is somebody DD's taught 
and nurtured from childhood and who is now going into harm's way 
under his orders. He must be feeling every bit as awful about Sirius 
death as Harry, not to mention guilt and empathy for Harry's 
suffering. 

   Everybody's looking to him, Dumbledore, for wisdom and leadership 
just when he thinks he's messed up big time causing Sirius' death and 
serious trauma to Harry. Now he doubts his own judgement but what can 
he do? There's nobody he can pass the load to, the galleon stops with 
him. *Harry's* certainly in no shape to take over the leadership of 
the Anti-Voldemort front, he still needs his mentor.

   And a mentor's lot is not a happy one. From Merlin to Obi-Wan 
Kenobi it means training up a boy you've come to love for a terrible 
destiny, one you can do nothing to avert or lighten.