Who's to Blame/Ending Occulmency was Re: [HPforGrownups] Harry as Kreacher

[tanilyn]

No: HPFGUIDX 100636

I'm sorry for snipping this down to the bone but I really wanted to 
respond to these particular points for now.  By the way I am a 
lurker that does not keep up with this list regularly due to time 
restraints, so hi.

rowena_grunnionffitch:
>    Like Harry couldn't connect the dots himself?? He knew he was 
> seeing things from Voldy's POV, he was afraid Voldy was trying to 
> possess him. He even overheard the adults worrying about that 
> possibility. Seems to me that was reason enough to work hard at 
his 
> occlumency.

First I would imagine that a lot of Harry's inner core self is 
pretty contaminated this entire year and is very much as responsible 
for his attitude change as his frustration, anger and confusement (I 
know that isn't a word)of being kept in the dark.  His mind is being 
twisted at first without Voldemort's knowing and then eventual 
knowledge.  

rowena_grunnionffitch:
> 
>    Let's see....the son of of his worst enemy at school has pried 
> into his most private and humiliating memories - which happen to 
be 
> about traumas inflicted by said father. I honestly don't see how 
> Snape could have continued after that. It was almost impossible 
for 
> him to stand being in the same room as Harry, much less talk to 
him.
> 

Yes it is hard knowing someone saw your worst, most private 
memories. And I do not blame Snape from an emotional, human 
standpoint (he is my second most loved character). But from your 
paragraph above you do not afford Harry the same reason not to 
continue with the lessons.  Snape gets to hide his humiliating 
memories from a legilmens novice, but Harry has to just deal with it 
from an expert and try his hardest though he feels it makes him more 
vulnerable to his most hated professor and whoever else to see his.  
I know it is not stated explicitly as his reason for not trying so 
hard but the whole experience was not on a halfway even playing 
ground.  It was just as much uncomfortable for Harry on a number of 
areas (safety, vulnerbility, distrust etc.) as it was for Snape, but 
Snape knew the whole scoop.  Not so Harry.

Tanya -- who loves both Harry and Snape and wishes they saw in each 
other what I do.  Two hurting guys that need a break.