Moving to Sirius? (was: Lily died before James? - No Room for Error)

[Mandy]

No: HPFGUIDX 103667

I wrote:
> > I don't think anyone was or could questioning Sirius' loyalty. 
> > It more the fact that Siurus Black was an immature, petulant, 
> > selfish, arrogant, hypocritical, angry, sad and lonely boy who 
never really grew up that's often discussed by those of us who really 
don't like him.    
> > Of course, that is what makes Sirius such a fascinating 
character, along with Snape. It's their faults that make them so 
intriguing.  
> > 
> > Kneasy wrote:
> Dear, oh dear, oh dear.
> Not question Sirius's loyalty? No problem at all. It might take me a
> couple of days to find the time to compose the post, so in the
> meantime, just as a taster, try post 79808 - Sirius Reservations
> and the thread that follows.
> 

Mandy again:
I should have been much more specific.  I don't think anyone could 
question Sirius loyalty to James Potter, and only James Potter.  But 
if you can, I'd love to hear it.

Sirius bears no loyalty to anyone else other than his deceased best 
friend.  He disregards the orders and advise of all those who have 
his best interests at heart; DD, the Order, Lupin, Molly and even 
Harry, when Harry won't do what Sirius wants.  No one is of any 
importance to Sirius Black unless they are in some way connected to 
James Potter in a sycophantic and desperate hold on to the past.  

I actually don't blame Sirius for being that way. Stay with me on 
this, I'm not trying to excuse him. ;-) Sirius is the product of his 
environment.  The only time in his life he was truly happy was during 
his time at Hogwarts and living with James, and to go from that into 
war and captivity for 13 years does not allow a person to grow up in 
a so called `normal' way.  But, I do blame him for his actions during 
the course of OotP.  Granted, Sirius is crippled emotionally and 
intellectually, incapable at times of making rational decisions, but 
he is surrounded by a legion of friends and colleagues who are 
desperately trying to assist him to do the right thing, and he 
disregards all of them at some point during OotP.  Why?  None of them 
are God.....I'm sorry I mean James Potter.

Sirius has no excuse for his behavior which is destructive and 
harmful to our hero.  Sirius Black needed to either step-up and take 
responsibility for his faults, or get out of the way.  Thank goodness 
he got out of the way. And imo I think that deep down inside Sirius, 
he relished the though of dieing as a way to finally be where he 
belongs, back at James' side.  

Cheers Mandy