My feelings

[Virginia Villamediana]

No: HPFGUIDX 136597

I just finished reading the book last night, because I live in Ecuador and here it was impossible to find the book sooner. Before I cath up with the reading of all your post sice the 20 of july, I need to share some of my thoughts whit you.

Whenever I felt sad or stress I used to read one of the books or watch some of the movies and I immediately felt good again, Also I always dream that when I have my own children, I will read them the HP books. But last night that could have change forever.

I dont know if I'm being too dramatic, but I fell horrible, the way the book end make me feel so depress I feel like I lost a member of my family, and maybe it would'nt be so horrible if there has'nt been so much betrayal on the way Dumbledore died.
We have been told in five books to trust in Snape and in spite of all the horrible things he did along five books, I trust Dumbledore judgment because he was suppose to be wiser than anyone, but now this happen, and I don't even find a good reason why. Why Dumbledore trust Snape so much?, Why he let him and Draco do everything that they did?. For me is not good enough reason that it was to protect Draco from Voldemort, and who protect the rest of the kids in the school?. And the reason because Dumbledore trust Snape was becasue he said he was sorry? thats not enough! ! . 

JKR sayd that she will explain why Sirius had to die, but not a single word of these was said. Is possible that she also will not explain more about what happen with Dumbledore, is possible that she will be killing Harry in the last book and never give a good reason?. How much longer we will have to wait to know if we have been reading this books all these years and putting our hearts in the characters and in the end it would be all worthless? all the struggle all the fight, all the pain useless?. 

I thought that after what happen in book 5 with Sirius nothing worse could happen, unless no without a good reason, but I was very wrong. So it is possible that in book 7 something even worse will happen?, is possible that in the end the good ones will not win?. In this moment I dont know what to expect, but I'm afraid nothing good. I suppose this is what JKR wanted, the readers not knowing what the hell is hapening, but if in the end she doesnt give us really good reasons to all of this, she will have tons of money, but also tons of fans very disappointed, IMHO.

Now, I need your help, can please anybody help me to find the way to see all of what happened with other perspective, with another point of view that wont meke me feel as sad as I feel now?. I need to be able to feel god about the HP world again, because it has been a really good part of my life so far.

Virginia.