The heart and mind of Bella

[Tonks]

No: HPFGUIDX 153470

I have been thinking for sometime about DE and what motivates them. 
At recent conferences I have taken to dressing up as Bella, because 
no one else does. But to really get into the role has been hard up 
till today. 

After a really hard day and a lot of anger and seeing someone 
screaming on a TV commercial at the same time I was 'ripping paper' 
to calm my nerves I have come to a closer understanding of Bella. (I 
read somewhere that if you can't go for a jog that ripping paper was 
a good idea to dispell the adrenalin.)

So here it is... a trip into the mind of Bella:

When you are very angry and the adrenalin is flowing through your 
body you must discharge this energy. Throw things, yell
 hit 
something
 or someone (as some do) or an even better way


Crucio someone.  The screams of your victim give pleasure, release.  
The same as throwing something only better.  There is no empathy, 
only the pure release of the adrenalin induced rage that has 
engulfed your body.  Hearing the screams releases the raw energy 
that surges through your body. You don't think of the screams as 
attached to a real human being or even a living being.  The screams 
are a way to release the trapped energy within you.  Better than 
ripping paper.  The more they scream, the freer you become.
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Tonks_op
who is really a very nice person... (well after reading some recent 
post about 'nice people', maybe not quite that nice. ;-)