I was wrong (contains spoilers, lots and lots of them)

[cubfanbudwoman]

No: HPFGUIDX 172267

Eggplant wrote:
> I once said you couldn't have a good Snape and a good book 7, it 
> turns out I was wrong. I also said if JKR can figure out a way to 
> do it then she's an even better writer than I thought she was, it 
> turns out I was right, she really is a better writer than I 
> thought she was.
> 
> But in my own defense let me ask even the most loyal members of 
> the I love Snape club something, wasn't there a time when reading 
> the book you thought I must be wrong, Snape really is evil?


SSSusan:
It's true confessions time, Eggplant, clearly.  YES, I did!  

I actually felt very confident -- I mean, *very* confident! -- of my 
DDM!Snape position all along.  I would listen to other arguments, I 
would read posts, but I always had a little inner smirk going, and a 
silent thought to myself, "I'm not budging; I think I've got this 
one nailed."  (So I was very, very happy to find out I was right.)  

BUT.

In the early parts of DH, after the scene at Malfoy Manor and after 
I looked back to confirm it had indeed been Snape who'd provided 
the 'four days before his birthday, not the night before' 
information, I had my first BIG moment of doubt about my position as 
a DDM!Snaper.  (Not a Snape lover, mind you, but a full-fledged DDM!
Snaper.)

I actually put the book down, thought back... hard... to HBP and to 
things which various list members here have said (Nora, Alla, Neri, 
etc.)... and asked myself, "Can I look back at all that I took in 
HBP as support for my position and rework it to make it fit OFH!
Snape or even ESE!Snape?  Can I have been wrong?"  

I didn't actually sit down & write out all the Yeses and Nos, but I 
had, for truly the very first time, grave doubt about my position.

Once I saw the silver doe patronus, I *hoped* that Snape was behind 
it and that all would be well, but I needed the ending to be certain.

Siriusly Snapey Susan,
who hadn't intended to post for awhile, but found all of Eggplant's 
thoughts quite moving