Lupin's Resignation - Self-Delusion

[Steve]

No: HPFGUIDX 191262



--- In HPforGrownups at yahoogroups.com, June Ewing <doctorwhofan02 at ...> wrote:
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> Bart
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> Why the hell didn't Lupin give the full details of Sirius' dog form
> as soon as Sirius escaped?
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> June
> He was afraid to admit that they had decieved Dumbledore while at the school. He say's so in the book although I do not have it with me right now to tell you where that is.
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Steve:

I think it is more complicated than that. First as a undercurrent running through all of Lupin's actions is an element of insecurity. Paraphrased, he doesn't feel worthy to be around 'decent' people, and when it is, he desperately does not want to do anything to jeopardize that. 

Next, I assume at first, he didn't think it mattered. If Sirius escaped, he was probably on the run, intending to get as far away as possible. Lupin probably thought Sirius was half way to Moscow or China. 

Then when it became apparent that that bit of knowledge might matter, it probably seemed to late. How would he explain how and why he failed to divulge that bit of information? That only make confessing that more difficult. 

Then I think he deluded himself into thinking he could handle it. That he would keep an eye on Harry and keep him safe. Though he thoroughly misjudged Harry's willingness to go looking for trouble. 

I think the self-deluded thought process happens to people all the time, a combination of insecurity, neediness, rationalization, and self-delusion. 

I can't really say I can justify what he did, but I think I can understand how it could happen.

Just one man's opinion.

Steve/bboyminn