Weeping for Sirius

[sephora063]

No: HPFGUIDX 68006

To quote star_opal (?):I read it over three times 
just to make sure I had it right. But it didn't tear me up.


I had a different experience. When Arthur is in the hospital, I was 
so scared of him dying. I didn't want him to die he is too good and I 
was just thinking of all of those Weasely kids without a father...
My heart also froze when Hermione was hurt...certainly Hermione 
wouldn't die? Right? But she didn't. The worst moment came when 
Neville ran in trying to be a hero. Anybody else, but Neville has his 
clumsy past against him (even though he has improved), I would have 
felt wasn't going to die. 

Sirius was totally unexpected. Of course, I was worried of him doing 
something reckless...I guess like this, but he had good and bad 
reasons for doing it. I was a Sirius fan, but now I love him even 
more because he's not coming back (alive that is). I cried until the 
end of the book and cried until I fell asleep. I was almost in 
denial, but I think JKR added the mirror and Peeves to 'solidify' his 
death, so I knew I couldn't go there. I was depressed all weekend, 
but I was determined to overcome it and understand Sirius' death. On 
the second reading, a little less emotional, but I understood and now 
I feel better. I couldn't/didn't want to talk about it I was so 
traumatized. Only after the 2nd reading can I appreciate OotP because 
I didn't even want to look at the book his death is so awful. 
-Sephora