OOP: Snape's feelings about Lily, was Re: Re-Severus and Sirius

[sharonlibrarian]

No: HPFGUIDX 64546

--- In HPforGrownups at yahoogroups.com, "Kelly L." <kethlenda at y...> 
wrote:
> Joanna wrote:
> 
> Snape fancied 
> > Lily and it was very clear, that she liked him alot more than 
> James, but in 
> > the end she chose James...This would of also broken his heart...
> 
> Kelly:
> 
> *nods*
> 
> Part of the reason that scene is Snape's worst memory, IMHO, is 
that 
> not only did MWPP harass him, but he ruined any chance he might 
have 
> had with Lily.  MWPP probably messed with him constantly, and vice 
> versa (I don't think Snape was innocent either), but it was that 
> particular time that his pride got the best of him.  When Lily 
tried 
> to help him, he reacted in wounded pride and called her a 
Mudblood.  
> She probably never would have had anything to do with him after 
that.
> 
> If Snape did in fact fancy Lily Evans, he might well remember that 
> incident as the moment when he lost her.
> 
> Make sense?
> 
> Kelly L.

Me:

This is what I have been thinking.  Some people have been 
saying, "after dealing with Voldemort, how could this school incident 
of long ago be Snape's worst memory?"  But he could look back on this 
moment with a great deal of bitterness.  Lily realizes Snape is 
a "racist" jerk, and upon reflection may begin understanding why 
James teases him.  She ends up dating and marrying James, gives birth 
to the child prophesized as Voldy's arch-nemesis, and ends up dying 
at Voldy's hands.

He may see this moment as the beginning of one big, ever-growing 
snowball.

Until he comes to terms with this, he'll continue to be the 
miserable, bitter person Harry knows him as. 

I guess it's a lesson for the rest of us:  you can't go back and 
change the past, so don't let it get you down too much.  It's kinda 
late for Snape to get a time-turner and go back and fix it.

Sharon