OOP Thoughts and more thoughts

[Melinda Leydon]

No: HPFGUIDX 64873

13. Now here I'm very sure I'm in the vast minority (I'm thinking perhaps 10
people out of our 8300 may think this as well). The relationship between
Sirius and Harry has always bothered me, even last year, and definately this
year (OoP). They've known one another less than two years, and yet Harry is
willing to listen almost exclusively to what Sirius has to say. He won't go
to Dumbledore, he won't ask anyone else for advice, and I'm not sure I
understand why. He's known Dumbledore, the Weasleys, even Lupin longer and
better... Why go exclusively to Sirius for advice and counsel? I'm thinking
this way- if I was told I had a sister I never knew I had, and someone
introduced us, I wouldn't instantly love them just because someone said she
was my sister. Yet this is how I think it happened with Sirius and Harry.
Why does he love Sirius any more than Lupin, or Molly, or Dumbledore? He's
known those three longer; they too have his best interests at heart; Molly
even thinks of him as her own son. Is it just because Sirius has the title
godfather, or because he's one of Harry's father's best friends?
    I was touched when Harry was part of Mrs. Weasley's Woes. I think part
of what bothered me so much about the H/S relationship in this book is that
Sirius didn't seem to have Harry's best interests at heart for quite a bit
of the book- he was reckless, a little selfish, and so that bothers me.
Perhaps, when I can articulate my thoughts and feelings on this matter a
little more clearly, I will post about it. Hehe.

I think the fact that Sirius was James best friend forged a connection with
Harry, but something abour Sirius clicked with Harry.  Your heart doesn't
always do what makes sense.  Whenever Harry needed an adult, it was Sirius
he turned too.  When his scar hurt at the beginning of GoF, he wrote Sirius,
when something is bothering , he was turning more and more to Sirius.  Even
when he just wanted advice on girls, which I found so painfully sweet.
Harry has never before turned to any adult and Sirus had bridged that, even
if he may have not been the best choice, he was Harry's choice.  That's what
makes his death so brutal to Harry.  I'm a bit concerned about his emotional
state over the summer alone with the Dursleys.  After the Dementor attack,
when Harry was locked in his room, we saw a bit of a depressive state.
Lying on his back for hours at a time, not brushing his hair in 4 days, his
room a mess from being in a really bad mood.  (Sorry, my book is loaned
out).  I'm wondering if this is where we are leading this summer and if
Petunia will pick up on it.  How long do you think we're going to have to
wait?
Melinda  (who keeps finding herself fearing for the emotions of a character
in a book she loves so!)