Snape Loved Lily. The Whole Story.

[Tonks]

No: HPFGUIDX 148480

Pulling up the stakes, folding the tent, putting out the fire.  
  
Walking on towards another part of the forest.  Stopping, looking 
back at the abandoned Snape loves Narcissa camp.  Sigh
   walking 
on
  seeing clearing ahead.  Yes this looks like a good place to 
camp, just on the edge of the Snape loved Lily encampment.

Yes it is official..  I am abandoning the Snape loves Narcissa 
camp.  After think more about my post of earlier today (see it here) 
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/HPforGrownups/message/148450

I have decided that this even makes the events of Spinners End 
plausible in a way that does not involve Snape loving Narcissa.  
What is really happening isn't that Snape loved Narcissa; it is 
Snape's torturous memory of his involvement in the death of Lily 
whom he loved and James whom he had a life debit too.  Snape is a 
tortured soul, lost in the abyss, bound to keep Harry alive because 
of his debit to James and his promise to DD.  Seeing Narcissa 
begging for her son "my only son", just brings back the whole memory 
of the events at GH and his sense of guilt for being the one that 
told LV of the prophesy. No wonder he turned away when Narcissa 
collapsed in tears in front of him, he could just imagine that 
mother being Lily. 

Poor, poor Snape. Oh what his life might have been if he 
hadn't "worn his heart on his sleeve", if he had never fallen in 
love and lost.  Better to never have loved at all!  See the mess 
that it got him into along with the whole hated of James, and life 
debit to James.  Maybe Snape could have coped with the death of 
James and the bad karma, if it hadn't been for Lily.  Not Lily
 no, 
please not her. Makes you wonder, if the memory in the cave is 
Snape's.  What a tortured soul he is... tortured and damned
 what a 
rich character that JKR has brought to life for us. 

In the cave DD drank Snape's memory. In so doing he took Snape's sin 
into himself.  And on the tower DD died to save him. It is all 
starting to come together.

Tonks_op