The importance of death /Harry and Cedric
Ceridwen
ceridwennight at hotmail.com
Mon Jan 30 16:20:26 UTC 2006
No: HPFGUIDX 147302
Sherry:
>
> Sorry, Lupinlore, I have to disagree as well, and you know, I
almost always
> agree with your take on things. But being a very private griever,
i felt
> Harry's grief for Sirius was absolutely convincing. When my dad
died eight
> years ago, if you didn't know me well, you might not have thought
it touched
> me much. I never spoke of it, not even to my sister and brothers
or my best
> friends. I still rarely speak of my dad. alone, i spent many
sleepless
> nights, many agonizing aching days, doing my job, going about my
life and
> feeling totally torn apart inside. But nobody would have known,
and people
> might even have said that I was taking it very well.
Ceridwen:
I'm a private griever, too. I lost my father right before I turned
sixteen, so I was even at about the same age as Harry was when he
lost Sirius. One completely insensitive woman at our church (the
pastor's wife!) actually told my mother that I 'wasn't too upset'
over my father's death. As if she knew me! We had plenty of time to
figure out he was going to die, he had been in and out of the
hospital for the past year. But when it happens, after thinking it
will but it doesn't for so long, it's a complete shock, and only then
is the reality brought home. I grieved. And it took years to stop
thinking I could tell him something. But I didn't think it was
anybody else's business. In fact, sharing it with anyone who wasn't
***extremely*** close (my mother, who was going through an equivalent
time, not even my best friends) seemed like a profane lessening of
the magnitude of the loss.
Sherry:
> Some things are too deep and painful to explode over, and Harry is
> more the type to pull his sorrow into himself.
>
> as for Harry's grief over Cedric, I think that was a combination of
things.
> i don't think it was just Cedric. He'd been betrayed by someone
he'd
> trusted. He'd see Voldemort return to his body, been tortured and
mocked
> and slashed with a knife; he'd seen the echoes of his parents; and
Cedric's
> only reason for being there was that he and Harry decided to take
the
> tri-wizard cup together. On top of that, he had fudge's disbelief
in the
> hospital wing, and then the abrupt return to the Dursleys, where
noone from
> the WW bothered to keep in touch with news and information. He felt
> completely abandoned by everyone. I think all of that put together
is why
> his grief over Cedric seems so out of proportion when compared to
his grief
> for Sirius. But that grief for Sirius rang more true for me than
almost any
> of Harry's other emotional reactions in the past.
Ceridwen:
And, as someone else pointed out, this was his first remembered
exposure to a dead body; Cedric was near Harry's age; Harry was
already emotionally on the edge as Sherry points out; somebody else
mentions that he also has to bring the body back to the Diggorys
which will be emotional in itself as he feels their grief; Cedric
isn't as close as Sirius, so the profanity of sharing the loss will
not be as great.
And, he is trying to come to terms with his own possible involvement
without the potential of putting it off onto someone else. He has an
outright villian in Crouch!Moody, so there is no secret culpability
that he can imagine and/or latch onto. It's in the open. So he has
to wonder what he might have done to supplement that (sharing the
trophy). And, it's his first experience with death and its
associated guilt. By the time Sirius dies, he has begun to learn how
to place the blame so he isn't so internally tortured by the 'what-
ifs' of his own actions.
He still has more steps to take, IMO. The true reason Cedric and
Sirius died is because Voldemort wants to take over the WW. That's
the root reason why they both died. Sharing the trophy was a noble
gesture. If it hadn't been for Voldemort's plan, it would have been
a stunning example of teamwork. Snape and Sirius had been taunting
each other and worse for years. If Voldemort hadn't planned to get
Harry to the MoM, they might still be taunting each other, Sirius
alive, everything as it was. Perhaps his blame placing has something
to do with not being ready quite yet, as of the beginning of HBP, to
face the magnitude of Voldemort's evil presence, and his own future
role in stopping him?
Ceridwen.
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