DD's pleading

[Akash aki]

No: HPFGUIDX 166329

Avi:
  For last few days I was reading HBP again, and wondered about the DD character. I found him not gentle or very kind but a well administered person who acknowledges his position. ( Well I was disturbed for almost a month when I first read about his death. )
  He was strict and hard core disciplined not like gentle and kind grandpa.
  Well he was gentle but more of formal.
   I wonder why he not take ministry post, I found two most strong reasons in support
  1. it was not a creative job.
  2.he may not be able to do anything secretively (like searching for Horcrux)

  Well, I agree it was not a creative job, but given the dark time, he can have the post which can be much much more favorable in the quest, rather than on every step looking towards MoM. After LV's downfall he can resign and return back to Hogwarts.

  Secondly, surely the privacy would be lost, but again, he would have been in full power to employ anyone or using his position he was much more unanswerable to anyone about what he was doing and all.

  Another thing, why he did not trust anyone. People who were ready to give their life just for his one word without asking the reason and cause, he doesn't seem to trust even them. If he is so much secretive, he should not have trusted Snape up to this extent. Lets HP, be a prophecised person, but not RON or Hermione, but he let HP to confide in them everything, were they more mature, trustworthy(when it comes to torture) than Lupin or Tonks or Mcgonagall (it seems he was most uncertain about her).

  Lastly, as I was pondering over his pleading kind of voice on the tower, I thought what reason can be possible for it(apart from so much already guessed ones). I then felt that, may be at that time Snape revealed to him that his true loyalty was with LV, and all these days he was just pretending that he is with DD. As it can be seen that DD had used nearly everyone (not for himself or his personal gain) in this war without caring their emotions. This makes Snape hate more to DD, because he was used almost as a puppet and loaths DD more and more whenever he thinks about his life or his situation.
  All this he let DD know on the Tower, which make DD, plead as he feel crestfallen, in his war against LV.

  As I told in the beginning I have never taken DDs death easy, it was as some of my personal loss, I was so much fond of him. But there are views in new light.
  Lets someone make me love him same or more again.

  avi