Courtly love in Potterverse WAS: What triggered ancient magic

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> > jkoney:
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> > Why should Lilly be unforgiving? She had held out hope that Snape wasn't truly like his friends only to find out that he considered her a mudblood just like all the rest.
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> Pippin:
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> That's what she thought, but it probably wasn't true. How do you know what Snape's thought process was? Haven't you ever said something in rage that you wished you could take back? <SNIP>

Alla:

No? You think he called her that, but he did not really *mean* it?

As to saying something in rage that we wished we could take back, um absolutely. Except, see the problem is that in my personal experience if I say something  mean when I am angry, it is often something I really and truly **mean**, just something that I do not want another person to be aware of.

So, certainly this is a personal projection, but as you said since we are not in Snape's head, I think it is just as valid as any - IMO when person is under stress, the ugliness usually comes out, since you are too angry to restrain yourself and keep it in your mind.

So I speculate that Snape always thought of Lily as mudblood, thought that it was an inferior thing to be - to be muggleborn, but also to him mudblood, but loved Lily despite that and finally under stress let his true thoughts show.

Just speculating,

Alla, who completely agrees with jkoney on this one.