Under the influence
eloise_herisson
eloiseherisson at eloise_herisson.yahoo.invalid
Thu Aug 18 07:29:40 UTC 2005
These thoughts did arise as a result of the alcohol thread (I was in
pursuit of a facetious theory that DD dies of Absinthe poisoning, but
it was a green light, not green liquid). In fact they're unrelated.
On reading through the scene in the cave again I was struck as I was
the first time by Dumbledore's peculiar ravings as he drinks the
potion. Now clearly we're meant to think that he's suffering delusions
brought on by the potion, or that he's simply referring to the way the
potion's making him feel. But this is JKR and I wonder, I really
wonder. What better way to slip in some memories and make Harry think
that it's Dumbledore speaking for himself rather than recalling someone
else's words?
"I don't want to...don't make me...don't like...want to stop...No...I
don't want to...I don't want to...let me go...Make it stop, make it
stop. No, no, no...no...I can't...I can't, don't make me, I don't want
to..."
So far so good. This could easily just refer to drinking the poison.
But then...
"It's all my fault, all my fault, he sobbed, "please make it stop, I
know I did wrong, oh, please make it stop and I'll never, never
again..."
Delusion or memory? And if a memory, who's saying it? Doesn't sound
like something Dumbledore would say to me.
"Please, please, please, no...not that, not that, I'll do anything...No
more, please, no more. I want to die! I want to die! Make it stop, make
it stop, I want to die! KILL ME!"
Now to be honest, it doesn't actually sound like anyone in particular,
except for perhaps Crouch Sr in his madness. It *does* possibly sound
like someone being Crucio'd. But again, Dumbledore isn't likely to have
said such things under Crucio, let alone have administered one (could
have witnessed one, I suppose). Could he actually be recalling the
words of someone in a deep emotional turmoil on learning the
consequences of something they've done? In JKR doublespeak, "Make it
stop!" could just as easily mean "Prevent this consequence from
happening!" as "Stop this torture!"
Could this be a continuation of that argument Hagrid overheard? Could
it be a combination of that and another, similar conversation, sixteen
odd years earlier?
Is *this* the proof of which Dumbledore has been so reticent? That
Snape came to him willing to die for what he'd done?
~Eloise
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