OoP: Amanda goes on and on about Snape, was and still is Snape/Lily

[David]

No: HPFGUIDX 62773

Amanda Geist wrote:

> I submit to the jury that it *may* be the case that this is a 
terrible
> memory for him because he liked Lily, and they did this to him in 
front of
> her. And as if he wasn't humiliated enough, she jumps in to *save* 
him, how
> totally degrading is that? This girl you'd like to look good in 
front of,
> not only has she seen you in your underwear, she thinks you need 
defending.
> Oh, great.
> 
> So in your rage and humiliation, you're angry at her, too. And you 
strike
> back at her, for she's just humiliated you, too, as much as James 
and Sirius
> did, and right at this point you don't give a rat's ass about her 
intentions
> being good.

I think we can take this a little further.  In fact, Snape doesn't 
need to be romantically interested in Lily for this to be his worst 
memory.  He just has to recognise her worth in retrospect.

The point is, he has rejected her.  We don't yet know the 
significance of that for his future development, but this seems like 
a crucial missed opportunity for him.  One can imagine him in the 
immediate aftermath regretting his 'Mudblood' taunt, and feeling 
that it's impossible to go back now, that Lily could never accept 
him.  In later life, that would be overlain with the further 
realisation that he *could* have tried, and that Lily would probably 
have accepted him.  Instead, there were years spent following 
Voldemort to regret.

All this is a trifle speculative, but it seems to me in keeping with 
Snape's generally tormented nature that his worst memories should be 
those that involve his own decisions and actions.

David